Oh, Imposter Syndrome

December 28, 2025

Today I was hit with a wave of recognition and inspiration.

A reminder of something I love to do.

Something I want to do professionally.

I sat down and started writing a business plan—

and quickly ran into a giant wall labeled Imposter Syndrome.

My momentum stopped cold.

My excitement drained.

My chest tightened.

Anxiety pooled in my stomach.

And that familiar little voice showed up:

Who do you think you are to charge that?

People want a professional. That’s not you.

This is too much. You don’t know what you’re doing.

Oh, imposter syndrome.

I see you.

I know what you’re doing, and you’re not helpful.

I know this reaction is normal.

I know my brain is trying to protect me by telling old stories.

And also—holy smokes—this is way outside of my comfort zone, And oh so scary.

But that isn’t stopping me.

What I do recognize is my first reflex:

to quietly put this idea back in the “someday” pile

and start applying for jobs instead.

So instead of forcing my way through the fear, I’m doing something different.

I’m taking a break.

I’m setting the business plan down for a little while.

I’m breathing.

Calming the fear in my body.

Eating some chips and dip.

Hanging out with my family.

The idea isn’t going anywhere.

Neither am I.

This is just part of the process—and I’m still on the journey.